Hey T,
So there’s this guy at my church who I know is a good guy. Our families have been friends a long time, all us kids grew up together (we’re all late teens/early twenties now), and he and I are about the same age. He’s hardworking, talented in so many ways, and he loves the Lord so much. I know both families would love it if we got together, and our siblings tease us about it all the time.
The problem is… I’m not attracted to him at all. AT ALL. This man checks all the boxes, he’s literally everything I thought I wanted, but I get this unnerving anxiety in my gut when I think about us dating.. and the idea of us kissing makes me want to physically run away from him, to the point I want nothing to do with him in any social settings (which makes me feel so bad because I can tell he’s interested in me).
So my question is… is this normal? Are my expectations too high with what “it” is supposed to feel like? I don’t know why I wouldn’t be attracted to him if he’s such a good man.
Idk what to do, I just need some advice and support.
Hey sister,
You are not alone in this. At some point, probably every man and woman out there has experienced this phenomenon of meeting someone who “checks all the boxes” and yet, something is just.. missing.
Take a deep breath, and slow your thoughts. The simple truth is you are not romantically interested in this man (“unnerving anxiety in my gut..” “physically run away from him..” “want nothing to do with him..”), and that’s totally okay. You are under no obligation to say yes just because someone asks you out, and you are not obligated to date a man just because he’s a good guy.
Ask any guy friend or a brother how they’d feel if a girl they really liked said yes to them only out of guilt or pity; then ask them how they’d feel if they knew that girl was physically repulsed by the idea of being touched by them. How would you feel, if the guy you liked felt those ways about you?
Just because someone is a good person doesn’t mean they’re the right person.
You ever had a friend point out a shirt they think would look great on you? You already know you don’t like it, but maybe they’re insistent or you’re trying to be more open-minded, so you try it on — maybe it fits you perfectly, but you still don’t like it. It doesn’t matter that it technically fits you well, or that your friend thinks it looks great, because you simply don’t like it. You know if you bought that shirt you’d never wear it a single day in your entire life, because you just don’t like it. At all. Even though it fits ‘perfectly.’
Not trying to reduce people to objects, but dating kind of works the same way. There are so many good men out there. You won’t be attracted to every single one of them, and every single one of them won’t be attracted to you; friends or family may want to set you up with someone they imagine is perfect for you, but as soon as you meet the person, you’re not even slightly interested. It happens all the time.
It’s not about finding the guy who’s perfect on paper. It’s about finding the man who’s perfect for you (and spoilers, even he’s not going to be perfect).
Consider that this may be a small divine revelation, that God is showing you that you don’t actually know what you want. The fact this man checks all the boxes and is technically “everything you thought you wanted,” and yet… you’re not attracted to him at all. Perhaps God is asking you to let go of that checklist so He can surprise you with someone incredible (and so much better); someone your beautiful but finite mind never could’ve dreamt up on a list.
I’ll leave you with some timeless wisdom a friend’s mom shared a few years ago.
We are not just a soul, we’re a body too. You’re not just marrying a man for his heart and mind, you’re marrying his body too. If you can’t see yourself kissing him and enjoying it — if no part of you is physically attracted to him, if no part of you is excited and even a little restlessly eager to kiss him — how could you fathom having sex with him for the rest of your life? To pursue a romantic relationship with him would be a lie, and a terribly cruel one at that. He deserves to be fully desired by his future spouse (as do you), and if marriage is God’s will for him, there is a woman out there who will be wildly attracted to him. If it’s not you, then it’s not you, and that’s okay. To ignore what your gut is telling you (that you don’t like him romantically) would almost inevitably set you up for a lifetime of hurt, conflict, and a lack of intimacy in marriage. That’s not fair to either one of you.
Know that you aren’t going to miss out on someone better for you if you don’t ‘snag’ this guy. Never let FOMO manipulate you, especially when it comes to dating and marriage. Don’t settle for a guy just because he’s good enough (ouch). Don’t ignore your intuition when it’s intensely emphasizing this man is not the one, because the idea of it literally makes you sick to your stomach (again… ouch).
Trust yourself a little more. Your intuition (which I like to think is a combination of primal instinct and divine guidance) is telling you the truth. You know how you feel. You know what you don’t want. Rest in the knowledge that God won’t ask you to marry someone you are not physically attracted to; that is not what the perfect Matchmaker does. He wants the best for you. He’ll give you a man who sets your soul and your body on fire; a man who’ll lead you to desire intimacy not only with him, but Him too.
That’s what a man of God does, the man of God who’s meant for you: he brings you to Love.
I hope you find some solace in this, sister,
You’re in my prayers this week,
—T